Sauerkraut

Just have to get this off my chest.

It's hard enough knowing you bailed that weekend without so much as a sorry or even an acknowledgment of my birthday. I don't care what you did or what you ingested.

But seriously? I'm about to give up.
You never talk to me anymore, so I'm thinking you don't care anymore.
But thanks for the friendship while it lasted.

Maybe I should give up?

You probably won't see this anyways..... you'll probably be too busy up in LA to even check around.

Just in case you do happen upon this....
I DO want my pants back. >->

Mobile Suit Gundam Wing Kick

Operation 1 DVD:

Lucrezia: "Don't shoot the enemy!"
Soldier: "Why not?!"
Wu-Fei: "Because she's a woman!"

Con Life

Aki and I have been putting in a crap-load of effort into a con we're staffing called Anime Conji. It's not exactly the largest or most organized in the world, but it's pretty excited and been full of surprises lately.

This weekend is our weekend up at Palmdale for Ani-Magic. Hopefully Aki and I will be able to go, if school doesn't get in the way. We have a supposed booth and room party. Can't wait. x3

Too cute?

I've always been told I'm "cute".
And I'm getting tired of it. x.x

Watch me end up dating some pedo. ><

dot dot dot.
Fuck that.



Randomness. Before I go who knows where.
Apparently everyone's mad with me or at school already, so I dunno where I'm going off to.
Finding another job? Could be useful.

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Work drama. Read if you want...

Okay. So, I'm one of those people who despise office drama.
With a flying passion.
I've tried to avoid it where I can.
But somehow..... It's found me.

And by a persons whom I never would have expected.
Who I thought I could trust to cover my a ss.
I guess it really is watch-your-ass in my department.

I was hired to do what was in the job description. I'm there for a specific reason: to do labor for money so I can pay for college expenses and my own necessities.

I was not hired so I could make their life easier in any way.
I was not hired so they can leave early or take a day off.
I'm working with them too. Doing the same damn jobs. Going through the same damn things.
But I'm also trying to get through college at the same time.
On the other hand, this job is all they do. Every day.
I think one would call that laziness? Inconsiderate? Rude? Selfish?

Whatever it is, I'm sick of it.
And my answer is
NO.

Good job. x.x

Found out that my comparison essay is due tomorrow at 9:45 AM.
Go me and my distractions.


This... is so fail.
x3

Afterwards, I get to work on my speech presentation/powerpoint and study for a 2nd Japanese midterm.

THEN I get to catch up on the thousands of romance novel series and Final Fantasy 4 on DS. :] Oh what joy in my life. <3


Mission....................Extreme fail, and still writing.

Life Lesson

Blah.

There are too many emotions to name that are in my brain.

There's no way in hell that a sane person with no car living in SAN DIEGO can hold down a part-time 5-day a week office job, be a full-time university student and actually PASS all their classes, go to hula on Saturdays, spend not even a day with one friend, and keep up with my hobbies that actually give me character.

There is NO WAY. I don't understand why my mom doesn't get this at all.

What do you guys think?

Job Update

Well, I've talked to my HR person, and I have Fridays off so I can actually get school work turned in on time. x.x
It's a start, for me at least.

And amazingly, I've only just realized just how shielded my life has really been.
No, seriously... >->

Though at this point in time, I really would love to just move out and experience the world with Aki. <3
She's like my big sister, best friend, and wife (without sex and making out) all rolled into one magnificent person. :]


Mission.........still fail, but not as much...

Not so much, but still fail

So on Friday, I finally had the chance to talk to my boss about my work schedule (yes, I've been trying all damn week, but she's either been out or busy. ><). So I now have Fridays off! No more work for Yuka on Fridays! woo! I can finally get all my homework done AND have a social life. <3

I've been missing my friends so damn much. Not that I have very many true friends to hang out with anyways. >->

Now I just have to figure out a way to tell my mom....
She DID say that I'm on my own with this job, but somehow, I don't believe her. O: I wonder why that is?! -gasp-

-ahem- anyways...

Overall mission.................................not a complete and utter failure!

I'm numb.

I don't see how this can possibly work without me having several nervous breakdowns.
I don't believe I can have a 5-day work schedule until 5:30 AND ace my classes.
I really feel cut off from my friends. From the rest of my family. From what I want to do.
I feel like a robot going on day-by-day doing the same thing with no emotions.
Just eat, sleep, school, work.
That just doesn't fit. I have goals I'd love to acheive, yet I feel as if I'm doing absolutely nothing.
I need my friends. I need my family.

The money doesn't matter anymore.

Mission.................complete failure at the moment.

How fail is this?

A lot's happened since I last posted, but there's one thing in particular I'd like to address. I've finally gotten a job after the last one I had (which was retail sales at a halloween store in October last year. >->) This one is a pretty good paying job for what I have to do. Office services clerk, meaning all I'd have to do to get a paycheck is to walk around about every 4 hours delivering mail, copying, sometimes faxing, and answer phones. And it's no where near minimum wage. O:

However there are some major fail aspects to this:
For one, my mother has been working at the law firm for over 10 years. (You can tell how I got the job. xD) So I'd be getting to see her EVERY SINGLE DAY now.

Another aspect: it's a Monday through Friday job that goes until 5:30. So I go straight there from class. >< It seems like I won't be able to have time for anything else other than school, work, eat, and sleep, right? But I'm Yuka, I'll somehow make time and room for everything else. :] Somehow.

Our AkiYuka time has been nearly cut away. Nearly being the key word. As I said I'll somehow find a way to make it.

Overall mission............................................I don't know yet. I'll let you know once I start working.

-Yuka

PS: Aki, I promise I'll remember it. :] <3

Jschool Performance

Today was the day when the taiko drummers from the Japanese navy were coming to perform for the Japanese school that we go to. The only problem was, they decided not to bring the drums because...it was too cold...? I think that's what is was... O.o

Anyways, last Saturday, Sensei hands Aki and I a paper of music and says "You'll be performing this next Saturday!"

Aki & I: O: -stares at paper- -looks back up at sensei- O.o ...... O.O -silence-

Sensei: And I like you to sing American song! 1 each!

Us: o.o ..... ._. fuck....

So, a week later, we've had multiple practices, but still don't have all the lyrics memorized and in no way shape or form ready to perform our American songs. We had to go up in front and introduce ourselves in Japanese and sing the typical Furusato that we always sing. x.x

And to answer your question, no we didn't perform our American songs, in which were Misery Business (by Paramore) and Hot N Cold (by Katy Perry, yes it was going to be as a joke. xD).

Someone (big hint) decides that they were going to sing the traditional Japanese song with Aki & I, even they didn't practice with us at all. I asked if they knew it, and they said, "Yeah! I know it! I've been practicing it for 3 days using YouTube!" Okay, I think, we'll see how this goes... So we perform.

Me: -within the first sentence of the song- HOLD UP! #1) YOUR TIMING WAS OFF, #2) THE LYRICS WERE WRONG, and #3) SEVERAL OF YOUR NOTES WERE WAAAAAAY OFF! 3 days of youtube practice, huh? I think we've already established that we can't trust anything you say anymore right? Good. x.x And GOD we butchered that song. Let's see if anymore Japanese navy guys even WANT to come back to visit. For this song, mission............FAILED!

-deep breath- okay.... I'm done....for now. Other than that, it was a very enjoyable day. :] We got to talk to some of the guys in Japanese, met new people, and went to the Conji Anime meeting, in which changed the name because of a con in Canada, and attempted to get more staff and plans to make flyers and organize... -coughcough-

Today wasn't too bad, just a mix of a lot of different things happening. x.x I still had fun with the VIP performance in the front room at Jschool. :] We rocked.

-Yuka

National Aki Day!

February 5th. This day, I celebrated National Aki Day with my friends, and it was wonderful. :]

Just so y'all knows, Aki is one of my best friends, and I'm proud to call her that. I would do almost anything and everything for this chick. Even though we've only known each other for the amount of time that we have, we've definitely been through a lot together.

As I said, February 5th was National Aki Day, meaning it was the -blank-th anniversary of Aki irritating the crap out of her parents. :3 In celebration, I spent 2 1/2 days with her, and it's the most fun I've had since we went up to ALA. Corvette Diner, laser tag, and shopping (no matter what you say Aki, I DID have fun window shopping).

Overall, I would say this was only partial fail, and we all know why... ><

I love you Aki! More than yaoi, music, and 8 hours with Gackt covered in chocolate on a vespa. You honestly don't know how much you've done for me. <3

-Yuka

After School Study Session

So after school today, I went to Aki's house to have a study session so I could help her with math and she could help me with Japanese and my Comm speech. First off, we went to the bank so I could give her the money to get her new phone. Yes, my friends, I'm sad to say I was the one who dropped it in the toilet... T-T

After, we were hungry and went to Taco Bell. It's the cheapest food that we will eat. :] I think that lady is going to get tired of us coming in nearly every single week... >->

After eating, we came back to Aki's house only to get distracted (as we both tend to be xD) by looking up songs to cover. And finally, we ended up watching Pineapple Express.

<-<

>->

What a study session, right? At least I found it educational...

Overall mission.............failed.

(Did anyone get that? They get fail cookies. :] The good kind.)

-Yuka

Friend (aka Fail) Drama (venting)

I believe I have just lost someone in my life that I was friends with in high school. This person has posted a blog on myspace about it and told me to "fuck off". Here's my response:

I'm sorry you feel that way. On second thought, no I don't.

I'm glad we were friends when we were, but I've come to realize that we've both changed, whether it be for good or bad.

I believe that people shouldn't have to lie to be who they are. It creates a fake world. I've seen you lie many times over. I've heard you lie in that FAB accent that you should have lost when you 'came here for high school'. I've stood by listening and watching as only some people drink in those lies. But you don't fool me. Nor others. Nice try.

You say it's because you're trying to find yourself? For starters, try being truthful in your words. Baby steps hun, make all the difference in the world.

And posting it on 'myspace' for all your friends to see your drama instead of, what was it you said...'saying everything to our face?' seems like a pretty poor and immature way of dealing with things. You've definitely changed, because I don't remember you dealing with things this way the last time drama came up between us. Last time, you came right up to me and talked to me so there was minimal damage. But if you want this whole thing to draw attention to you, then by all means, go ahead. I won't be there to watch you get worshiped by hot asian men and okinawan girls. I'll be, as you have said previously, up ahead, working towards my ambitions, instead of settling down for being a housewife.

P.S.: I like how you gave me credit for my kimono in your 'photoshoots'. That was fucking hard work asshole. You try making something on your own for once.

Yep, that was my rant and ventings. I don't believe that we're done with this, but I would like to be. So much. Anyways....

I feel bad for making my first post about something angsty and definitely fail. D: Tomorrow I'll post something nice and happy and cheerful for you guys. :3 I love you two! <3

Failure of an Intro: The first post in the Fail Life

Well, I've decided to have a place where I can post things such as events that have happened in my life with family, friends, and such. But also a place where I can come and vent sometimes. It's basically going to be a place where my two friends, if they even decide to read this, and whoever else out there is interested (who would be though? I'm some random chick posting about her life. xD), can follow on what happens and my decisions, and whatever random shit I decide to post.

This blog is named Yuka Stars In: The Fail Life because it is so. So many good things happen, but there's also the fail things in life that you need to just sit in your fail corner eating your fail cookies, fail brownies, and fail milk that you got from joining the dark side.

Well, I don't know who's going to actually be following this, but you're welcome to follow. :] Unless you're a stalker trying to get to me or something. >-> The you can just go have fun with your independent scam website and eat take-out or something.

-Yuka